Turkey Day.

soooo it's Hanksgiving (I spelled it like that on purpose eh eh Clair) So eat Turkey. Be Fat. And happy. and stupid. And Happy thanksgiving.

Multiple Dorkgasms.

Ok so Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire had it's flaws (such as the man who plays Dumbledore being a total baffoon and Hermione always wearing pink) but there is no doubt in my mind it was the best yet! We went on opening night, I dressed up ha and no one else did, but it's ok because all the little kids seemed impressed I was in costume. Thank you Mike Newell where ever you may be, for finally making fred and george funny and making hermione have a bit of her personality. So I thought I'd put a few pics from that night, btw clair's a nasty butt anyone who knows her, your homegirl ate popcorn off the ground, hahaha she's my hero for it though, she knocked a bunch of Joyce's popcorn on the ground and then tried to get some out of the bag and Joyce says "uh uh your popcorn's over there" and points to the ground and hahaha she ate it, even though there was something wet in the same spot before we got there. Then she goes to get a drink, steps on the popcorn in the process and still eats it when she gets back haha. Anyways it was good times... awesome movie. See it! and here's some pictures.

Wasteland...

Change my attempt
good intentions

Crouched
over
You were not there
Living in fear
But signs
were not
really that scarce
Obvious tears
But I
will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help
And please
see
The bleeding heart perched
on my shirt
Die
withdraw
Hide in cold sweat
Quivering lips
Ignore
remorse
Naming a kid
living wasteland
This time
you've tried
All that you can
turning you red
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I?
could I?
Here we are
with your obsession
Should I?
could I?
Crowned
hopeless
The article read
living wasteland
This time
you've tried
All that you can
turning you red
but I
will not
Hide you through this
I want you to help
Change my attempt good intentions
Should I?
could I?
Here we are with your obsession
Should I?
could I?
Heave the silver
hollow sliver
Piercing through another victim
Turn and tremble
be judgmental
Ignorant to all the symbols
Blind the face with beauty paste
Eventually you'll one day know
Change my attempt
good intentions
Limbs tied
skin tight
Self inflicted
his perdition
Should I?
could I?
Change my attempt
good intentions
Should I?
could I?
Should I?
could I?

A post I'd like to call "People Suck"

There’s so cryptic reason. Or enigmatic explanations. Human beings suck. Now, that is often said but without true feeling. Because deep down you want to think it’s less blunt than that. You say “but -so and so- gives to charity!” then you find out they do it for tax reasons. You say “but look at this nice preacher who tries to help so many people” and then you find out a few years later he tried to have his wife murdered for 5 bucks and a rusty hatchet. It’s not deep… or complicated. So why don’t we simply except the fact that human beings (including your own being) suck? Because we HAVE to have faith. Even those of us who say we have faith in nothing are lying to ourselves. We make a belief that there’s that one perfect friend out there, that one perfect guy. We trick ourselves into believing we’ve found said person. When really we know we haven’t, we’re simply making due. And all the time we wallow, and we complain, and we say “boy, people suck!” in an angry or offhand manner. But later, we’re seeking that new friend with suprising (even to ourselves) fervor, and in the midst of it all, we’re cynical and sarcastic… because it’s a way to cruelly say the truth and call it a joke, even be considered “spunky” for really just being a bitch. We eat our feelings, or smoke our feelings, or drink or feelings, or shoot our feelings into our arm, or some other awful way we deal instead of outwards admitance, and then we quit and we get a flow of “yay! Aren’t you wonderful! You quit!” with no one acknowledging that you’re only quiting something you brought upon yourself in the first place. You should feel ashamed, but you feel proud. You wrap yourself in clothes you really can’t afford and make up no one really needs, and tell yourself you’re “trying to make yourself feel better” not coming out and saying you’re really just being vain. So everyone I want a favor… I want you all to work on admitting to yourself that people just simply suck. Including yourself.

These are just my pensive mind wonderings and are not directed toward anyone in particular... or maybe everyone as a whole

Hey everyone check out my big ego...

I don't understand Why are you being so mean? You're mean mean man
[Chorus] You are just jealous of me Cuz you, you just can't do what I do So instead of just admitting it You walk around and say All kinds of really mean things About me cuz you're a meanie, a meanie But it's only cuz you're Just really jealous of me Cuz I'm what you want to be So you just look like an idiot When you say these mean things Cuz it's too easy to see You're just a really big weenie, big weenie
[Verse 1] Alright listen, I need you to focus I need you to go dig deep in your mind, this is important We are going to perform an experiment of the sorts I'm going to have to ask you to bear with me for a moment Now I need you to open your mind-your eyes close them You are now about to be placed under my hypnosis For the next four and a half minutes We are going to explore into your mind To find out why you're so fuckin' jealous Now why did they make Yoo-Hoo? Hippity ga-ga boo-boo Psych, I'm kidding I just wanted to see if you're still listenin' Ok, now I need your undivided attention Sir I have a question Why do I always sense this undeniable tension From the moment that I enter into the room It gets all quiet and whispers Whenever theres conversation, why am I always mentioned? I've been dying to ask, it's been itchin' at me Is it just because

[Chorus]You are just jealous of me Cuz you, you just can't do what I do So instead of just admitting it You walk around and say All kinds of really mean things About me cuz you're a meanie, a meanie But it's only cuz you're Just really jealous of me Cuz I'm what you want to be So you just look like an idiot When you say these mean things Cuz it's too easy to see You're just a really big weenie, big weenie

[Verse 2] Alright now I, I just flubbed a line I was going to say something extremely important But I forgot who or what it was, I fucked up Psych, I'm kidding again you idiot, no I didn't That's just what you wanted to hear from me Is that I fucked up ain't it? But I can bust one take without lookin' at no paper It doesn't take a bunch of takes Or me to stand here in this booth all day For me to say the truth, ok? You're droolin, you have tooth decay Your mouth is open, you're disgusting What the fuck you eat for lunch A bunch of sweets or something, what? You munch a bunch of Crunch 'N Munch? Your tooth is rotten to the gum Your breath stinks, wanna chew some gum? Yes I do sir, what am I on? You sir are on chew syrum Marshall I'm so jealous of you Please say you won't tell nobody I'd be so embarrassed, I'm just absolutely terrified That someone's gonna find out why I'm saying All these terrible, evil and awful mean things It's my own insecurity!

[Chorus]You are just jealous of me Cuz you, you just can't do what I do So instead of just admitting it You walk around and say All kinds of really mean things About me cuz you're a meanie, a meanie But it's only cuz you're Just really jealous of me Cuz I'm what you want to be So you just look like an idiot When you say these mean things Cuz it's too easy to see You're just a really big weenie, big weenie

[Verse 3] Alright now we, we're going to conduct That experiment that we were talking about earlier Just to see what a frog looks like when it takes two hits of ecstasy Cuz that's exactly what your eyes look like, want to check to see? Here's a mirror, notice the resemblence here? Wait, let me put these sun glasses on Now look in this mirror, how about now? What do you have in common? You're both green with envy and look like idiots with sunglasses on 'em You look like I sound like singing about weenies Now take my weenie out of your mouth This is between me and you, I know you're not happy I know you'd much rather see me lying in the corner of a room somewhere crying Curled up in a ball tweeked out of my mind dying There is no denying that my weenie is much bigger than yours is Mine is like sticking a banana between two oranges Why you even doing this to yourself, it's pointless Why do we have to keep on going through this, this is tortuous My point is this That if you say mean things, weenie will shrink Now I fogot what the chorus is, your just a...

[Chorus]You are just jealous of me Cuz you, you just can't do what I do So instead of just admitting it You walk around and say All kinds of really mean things About me cuz you're a meanie, a meanie But it's only cuz you're Just really jealous of me Cuz I'm what you want to be So you just look like an idiot When you say these mean things Cuz it's too easy to see You're just a really big weenie, big weenie

I HATE BARRY KEITH WYNN

At least I admit I was talking about you unlike you did on your blog... fucking emo pussy.



...we here at my blog would like to thank you for bearing with me through the confusion.

"well you were trying to f- f- have fun" I hate everyone but Clair

So I hate everyone but clair... the end.

Me and Joyce have been close

Hahahaha sorry, I couldn't resist. Hello all, this week has been weird slow and whirlwindy. I'm watching the kids for money now so I can get everyone kick ass presents for christmas, seeing as how I never could before... my presents to people usually aren't all that great but I vowed to do differently this year... I like giving, I'm so super great. Not really but I try. All my money (except GoF money its in a week!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!) is going toward buying people presents. Tomorrow is thursday... and I get my Clair back! yay! I haven't seen really got to hang out with her in a while so I'm excited. I really need to go buy my Goblet of Fire ticket soon... but I have so little time to do anything seeing as how the kids are usually here from my wake to my rest. Anyways, I don't have a lot to report, I didn't really do much the past weekend, just sat at Keith's on friday with the usual people and then... you guessed it, came home and watched kids.... so yeah bye

All Hallow's Eve...

So welp... Halloween was kind of...Random. It wasn't bad, it was actually pretty fun, but Clair didnt show or call or anything which was kind of sad. And we missed a lot of the crap downtown.. actually like all of it until we said screw this and went to Ci-ci's. where I spent the whole time playing games... and won a fucking dolly outta that damn claw game on my first try. Fuck yeah I kick ass. so yeah anyways... it was practically just a hanging out thing.. and ended with a hanging out with Keith's sisters thing because I was abandoned. Unsurprisingly. But yeah it was fun anyways. Today I was not as fortunate. And I think the black spray stuff I used on my hair might have stained it. Anyways yeah I think I might go insane where I am presently. If life doesn't start sucking less I may have to take drastic mesures... such as breaking stuff. but no really... Im excited to start college.. eventually. Come on birthday. I want to start doing shit so I don't have to be stuck here all the time working toward nothing. And another problem is the fact that I STILL cannot decide what I want to do. I think I'm pretty set on being a literary critic.. or trying anyway. But I want to be so many things, a director, a painter, an Egyptologist, a relic hunter. Shit maybe I can do em all. No listen. I'll be like a super hero, painter by day, relic hunter by night... then I'll switch off. Hmm. Ok that probably wont happen. But I've just decided on the spot that's it's my new way of distracting myself when the thought of what Im going to do with my whole life comes up. Arrrr. Bad night this was. I've definately had better. But cool thing is... my sister's giving me some babysiting time (no Im being serious keep reading) on friday.. for MONEY see. Ooooh. Not just the regularness of my life that is constant babysitting, but she's not working see she just wants someone to watch them while she goes to buy coats or something? anyways its good see because I wouldnt have had money to go see GoF (Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire for you know, Harry Potter illiterates) otherwise and now I have this niceness and stuff. I kind of lied about wanting my birthday to come around see, because I dont really want to grow up, where the fuck is Peter Pan at. And on that subject Wendy and him, totally got it on ya know, but like when and where?! Hmm? It should have been included in the disney version they can put a phallus in a castle and sex in dust but they cant show a beautiful love scene between Peter and Wendy... oh well bye.