"The streetwalker is taking care of the baby"

We here at my blog would like to apologize to any emo kids who were hurt by my last blog. I mean we SORT OF care. I still feel that way though but Im not in crazy mode anymore so I kind of regret making the blog but oh well. Emo Kids are resilient.. they get made fun of a lot so they'll bounce back. Im bored. It's saturday and Joyce is asleep.. Clair is continuing to blow me off. And I have a stomach ache... yeah I know that didn't have anything to do with anything but wtf ever.ok going now

Insanity and Weight goals

Well I think I'm officially insane. I've had a rough night.. I need sleep. But I cant sleep. I feel like I could just curl up in a ball and rock back and forth. And my throat feels closed up and I dont know what the hell that's about. I don't know.. I thought I was over this shit but i dont guess I am.. Sad thing is I was going to post a big happy blog about reaching my goal weight.. when i started my diet 8 months ago this was the weight I wanted to be.. I have a new goal weight now, but so far I've lost 92 pounds. hoo-raw =( this is awful. I feel.. indescribable. And I hate emo kids right now. I know that sounds rough but whenever I slip into crazy mode I can't stand to think about emo/core/sceneXX a million X's whatever kids running around talking about how emotional scarred and crazy they are when most of them are fucking lying. sorry. Im upset. Im going now

A New Year

At midnight of the new year I tasted alchol for the first time in four years

Today, Two days into the new year, I got behind the wheel of a car for the first time in FIVE years

Wednesday, four days into the new year I will be going to sign up for G.E.D classes, the first thing academic I will have done in one year

In a around a week I will have the money to get an ID and start work

Summer I will start college, the first time I will have attended a school in what will then be a year and a half

It's a new year, and I refuse to be imobile any longer.. this year I won't let my rcompulsionsr drive me to be a hermit.. I may not have any set any resolutions.. but I have resolved to be different than I have been. Hope everyone had happy holidays.. I got some kick ass presents. e Including the dress as seen in the picture. I love it. I've wanted it forever. Thought I'd show you. =) everyone wish me luck on my new year. Thanks to everyone else who got me gifts, namely my friends, I love the movie Keith, I've wanted edward scissorhands for the longest Joyce all of your presents were thoughtful and wonderful, and clair wow Ive wanted that poster forever. =)

Also a quick edit.. my last post might end up showing up, if it did i apoligize for repeating myself