It seems like forever...

I know no one reads my blogger. Though i have moved up in the myspace world, this hollow home remains woefully empty. Which alas makes it a better place to ramble, and when I check it it doesn't say "8 new comments" all asking "awwuh why are you sad" for I usually use blogs as an outlet, however cryptic the words undoubtably are. Things have improved in my life in many ways, despite my weird feeling over these last couple of days, my boyfriend is wonderful to me, and we have a very close friendship as well.. you cant really ask for more. But if you know me, you know I always do. I can no longer deny the fact that yes, I am now, thin. No, maybe not thin, small, my body type will probably forever fail to be thing, I have quite large hips you see. But no longer the fat kid. Although my confidence remains toward the low side, there is no doubt it is improved. I have commitment issues which is a problem. But I think that's understandable if you know me. I know everything is to end. So I dwell. and dread. and mourn before things run their course. A terrible way to live, but, we cant stay young and naive forever now can we?