Insanity and Weight goals

Well I think I'm officially insane. I've had a rough night.. I need sleep. But I cant sleep. I feel like I could just curl up in a ball and rock back and forth. And my throat feels closed up and I dont know what the hell that's about. I don't know.. I thought I was over this shit but i dont guess I am.. Sad thing is I was going to post a big happy blog about reaching my goal weight.. when i started my diet 8 months ago this was the weight I wanted to be.. I have a new goal weight now, but so far I've lost 92 pounds. hoo-raw =( this is awful. I feel.. indescribable. And I hate emo kids right now. I know that sounds rough but whenever I slip into crazy mode I can't stand to think about emo/core/sceneXX a million X's whatever kids running around talking about how emotional scarred and crazy they are when most of them are fucking lying. sorry. Im upset. Im going now