"Jesus loves babies, but he couldnt eat a whole one"

Viva las Nashville! Or... er kind of. I'm posting because I just got back from Nashville with the fam and my friend Erin, it wasnt as great as the Memphis trip because of unexpected er problems but it was still oodles of fun. Haha my title is a quote from the trip we were going down the road and there was a sign that said "jesus loves babies" and I read it out loud and added on the last part everyone laughed but told me I was horrible. I almost made my title "Well it must be a sad life being a hotel fish whore" haha my MOM said that, shes so much more fun when shes in a good mood, the hotel we stayed in Hotel Preston, was so beautiful, and they would give you beta fish, but just for your stay, hence why my mom called him a hotel fish whore. I named him pedro. :( I miss him already, it was 10 fucking dollars to buy him and I didnt have the money for it, but I miss the little dude, I took pictures of him. Then again my and erin took pictures of EVERYTHING. We even took a pic of a pretzel in the middle of the floor at the mall. Oh dude though that mall is AWESOME! I wish I could live there. We had some bad times though. Outside of the hardrock when me and Erin stepped out to smoke a homeless man with a bloody eye patch comes up to us and he says "can I trouble you girls for a cigarette and some information" and I didnt have any ciggs, I had got one from my sister and erin only had one left. So I'm all "oh Im sorry we dont have any we got these from my sister" so he says "can you call my aunt, (then he leans in real close to me) because someone busted my eye out yesterday" and it was all bloody and cut around it and mind you hes holding this piece of paper and its all wet (rained REALLY bad we almost couldnt come home, bad wrecks bodies, saw them dont want to talk about it) and on the paper I notice its a buisness card and its advirtising a mental home *shrugs* no clue what it was about. So we're really nice to him and tell him ya know we dont have a phone but they might let him use the one inside. Anywho Im gonna get pics online but I gotta stop talking or I'll go on forever. Going to pick up joyce now, btw joyce sorry about your relationship struggles we've all been there girl! And I'm all alone I know what you're feeling right now, but you've got options at least hun, lol, see you in a few, and everyone else who doesnt read my blog... whats up

I went from being a rock, to a coatrack, to a doormat, to a pillow, and now back to being a rock again

I have a pointless existence, I only post on here to vent when I'm pissed, my title is kind of difficult to explain. basically, I went from being pointless, to being used to being treated like shit, to being someone's pillow (screams) to being pointless again. I wish people would just be honest and tell you how they feel, but that is not human nature, once you get the thing you've been trying to get, you don't want it anymore. How ironic. This blog post will make very little sense to those of you who don't know the situation, but to type the whole thing out would be to piss myself off even more and I'm all alone in my house and there is no one to scream at or hit. So I will move on from that subject for the moment. Nothing else beyond my pointlessness is really new. I thought we were moving but we arent. It doesnt really matter I suppose. I am not teathered to anything so my being here nor there it is all the same. Nothing more to say. Bye

*current song*Sevendust- broken down